Saturday, October 17, 2009
Too Tired to Sleep
Does anyone else sit alone in the darkness, body too tired to move, yet mind speeding through a lifetime? With thoughts whizzing past at an annoyingly attention-grabbing rate. I have found sleep to be elusive. This, in itself, is not new to me. However, with my latest boy, I am worn out and actually long for sleep. Now, unfortunately, I find myself drawn to the computer at 3 a.m. when the little one has, once again, been fed and is resting. Any normal Mom would try to pass out. Yet, no matter how drained I may be, my mind won't let me sleep. It would be different if I could nap with him during the day, but with four young kids, there is no napping. So I find myself guiltily enjoying the silence of the night, wishing it would spread its tendrils through to sunrise, unbroken in its beauty.